I have found eye candy that makes my heart pumps fast I have found the "unglam" me before the amazing camera I have found myself smiling before the people of my love I have found my strength in times of busy-ness I have found the never give up spirit on what I love I have found my ability to exercise I have found a deeper calling and passion I have found I have found I have found I have found I have found
me
once again. =]]
d.
2:46:00 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
UPDATE
I
I
I
I
got
my
I-P-H-O-N-E!
*thanks sweet*
2:14:00 PM
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Replying tags
I appreciate all of you to visit my blog so often. I really felt loved by all of you. Thank for for even putting down your steps on my tagbox. I just want to share something to all of you. I am just wondering what's your motive of doing all these, but whatever that reasons are, I just want to say that nothing can affect me, because all these are just words. You can say all the vulgar that you pleased and still I will move on and smile everyday of my life.
Just respect yourself and all the people around you. Don't let your future just be ruin because you are not happy with whatever that's happening around. Keep on keeping on. =] I don't need you all to tell me what I should do or how I should react to my lives. I know when to love and when to just move on.
To my students: Thank you for popping by and take a look. I appreciate all of you so much and loves you all deep. *muacks*
9:22:00 PM
Saturday, September 19, 2009
From here, I am moving on
This entry is only going to pin down what and how I feel all these while and from here, I promised myself; no more, MOVE ON. *readers, endure with me* (this is just one of those moments that I feel the worst of my life, I am sorry if this entry is going to make you feel anything worst/bad)
I know today is a special unique day. Last year, this day, I have had made a choice I wish I can live with for the rest of my life. Who knows, within a year, so many things can happen, but yet, I found out that one thing has yet to change, and that's my love for you that still beats ever strong.
Today, I put on that extraordinary watch on my hand. Opening a box of mine, I saw that lovely ring laid there, memories were overwhelming me that split moment, but yet I got to bite that bullet of pain, of tears and tell myself, is over, is okay. In that ring of mine, I saw an image of us, walking in a green pastures. I pick up and trying to put it on, it seems a little too big now. =[[ Thus, I hold it in my hand tightly and whisper, “I love you” before I put it back into my box.
Through the day, I walked past many places that remind me of you, even to that corner of my room. A moment I will never forget, the moment you held my hands, and tell me, “You are mine”. Tears flow out of me, when I see those images as images now. Nothing will ever be able to tell you how much I truly love.
Where and what have had happened, I wonder?
Honestly, if this is a love game that I am going to carry on playing, let the hurt be on me and me alone. I don't want to hurt anyone, I am not ready to shelter you with love anymore, to protect you and make sure you will not be harmed. I promised myself that unless and until I can be a do-er of my words, I will remain single.
*to that special one* I am sorry that we have had to remain as friend, to be someone who may not even communicate, but nevertheless, I thank you for the friendship that was built, the love that was lavished on me. I felt so loved by you, but let me "love" you once, by not hurting you anymore and I don't want to be selfish towards you. Let take time to understand one another once again. So sorry for hurting you, for comparing you, for even to make you jealous from time to time, I am sorry.
*to that prince*
I guess you will never be able to comprehend why I am still like that, and honestly, am okay that you don’t know. I don’t want to say anymore, nor anything, except, “I love you for the rest of my life.” 190908 (1841) – 190909
I am running away.
Daphne
9:19:00 PM
Friday, September 18, 2009
Updates
It has been a long time since I last login to blogger and share what have had happened to me. I guess from the absence of my blog, there's only one word to sum it all.
BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY
I am squeezing time to do what I really like, but apparently, it just seems impossible. I can't attend cell group, I can't attend children church, I can't go chill with my lovely. All I can do is, to stay in school, listening to lectures, working to complete what's supposed and home to rest whenever possible only. It has been a great time to stress though, cause this has been a period of myself where I get even closer to God, seeking Him more than anything in my life.
Just a few moments ago, God spoke to me about His blessings is abundant, is more than what I can think or imagine and that had become a reality of my life in my 22nd Birthday. I have so much blessings that I can't content and would love to give and share ith with people whom I love. God is really good.
Recently, God tested me once again. I am once again in the junction deciding what I should do, what has to be done. I know God has prepared my heart but still He wants the best for me. =]]
Life's painful experiences are really teachers for your learning To bring you to the realization that, discipline and integrity are the order of the day What a price you pay for every indiscretion There is a price to pay for every careless mistake Yes, the pain seems greater than you can bear
*jia you daphne*
EdHardy,Vouchers,Iphone,Birthday Card, great Fellowship = God is AMAZING
10:01:00 AM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The new beginning
I cried my whole life out yesterday, wondering what was I so "dumb" to go through such feelings that are UNNECESSARY. I have no idea but I guess my love for someone has hit over the moon and it had ran crossed my faith with God. I felt so broken that there's no turning back in life. I just wanna give up and give in to Satan. I JUST WANT to.
Yet the amazing thing is, despite what my mouth says and how my heart feels, I just don't have the willpower to do it. I mentioned all the negatives words, and my heart was so numbed to the extend I could feel the pain. I just want to give up and give in to that obstacle of my life. I blamed God, I criticized Him, I HATED Him. Honestly speaking, I can't imagine the ME on 18/8/09. I was LOST.
However, weak I maybe, He chose to remain strong and faithful. I was just playing some music as I grumbled to my best friend. I was crying when I was typing out to him, I was just trying to be naive and stubborn to show him how big my problem was, yet a good friend like him, chose to remain silent and hear me out. He encourages me with what I already know, but it was not those words that changes my heart, rather it was care and love, it was the sincerity of that friendship, it was that friend who walked through good times and bad with you. His actions were not the ones that exactly broke me and saved me, it was the music behind my tears.
The God I know is righteous and holy The God I know is faithful and true The God I know my tower of refuge Hearts are healed Christ revealed The God I know light of the city The God I know strengthens the weak The God I know your heartbeats lives within me As you are, so are we
When this song plays, I cried like there's no tomorrow. I can't believe what I just said. I felt like Peter who denied God but I thank God that I have that same strength from the Holy Spirit to beg for forgiveness. God showed Himself once again, so righteous and holy, so faithful and true. He is indeed MY tower of refuge in times like these, my heart is healed; Christ is revealed/manifested. My God is the light of my city, He is the One who strengthens the weak like me, His heartbeats live in the life of mine, just as He is, so am I, the little Christ.
I can't believe how real God is. I can't believe I saw Him when I can't move on. I just can't believe. But God made ALL things possible, God made things to happen for the glory of His. He made it just for me.
I started it on 19/9/08 and since then I have a tough time moving on, but on 19/8/09, I am holding onto someone's else hands who can carry me on from here. =]] I know many may think I am childish and stupid but I know whatever I am doing, I am doing it for my own benefit and I am happy with my actions. Good Job! Love, Daphne PS : specially thanks to Buddy, Drew, BaoBei and SweetBaby =]]
7:06:00 PM
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thank you for sharing your life with me Thank you for making this journey a little lighter Thank you for being my ears to hear me Thank you for everything
Today, I cry out to my Love, to my Valentine I seek that Love The Love that no ones knew Now that I have it What about you
I crossed my fingers I pinned my heart I cried my life I found my joy
Today is just the day The day of flowing water Today is just the day The day of endless mercy
I stood in awe I cried in buckets I kneel in humility I love with ALL
11:01:00 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I miss you =]]
9:07:00 PM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
WONDERS
WHY PEOPLE TALK WITHOUT USING THEIR BRAINS
AND ACTING AS IF THEY HAVE NO BRAIN.
WHY?
DON'T BOTHER TO ASK
SOME PEOPLE JUST BEHAVE LIKE THESE.
AWFUL
DON'T SAY WHAT YOU HAVE NO MEAN TO DO
10:21:00 AM
Monday, June 29, 2009
Thank you
I never expected my 500th posts to be something I am going to hold so dearly about. =]]
As many have had heard by now that I was sick since 19th June 2009. It was one of the worst moment of my life where I was weak and sick; not sure what to do or even to see the sun the next day. It was my darkest time of my life, it was the dullest time of my life too. It was that bad of which you can think about.
I was "bed-ridden" for 8 days. 8 WHOLE DAYS. I was having 40 degrees of high fever that can't subside. There seems to be NO ways that it can leave me. I seen 3 doctors and more than 12 packets of medicine, still my fever is 40DEGREES. I can't take the jab to subside the fever instantly because I am allergy to a kind of medicine that's found in the jab.
I was at the "dead" end of my life, I was grouchy the moment I got up and the peaceful times were those time where I just laid myself on my bed and sleep. I can't eat, I cant swallow even my own saliva, what more to eat FINISH those antiboties. I didn't ate more than a cup of rice for that 8 days. I don't feel hungry at all! =]] All that I know was, I was tired, I was weak. I can't do much than to just open and close my eyes.
Many had sent their regards over to me, which overwhelmed this "weak & sick" body of mine. I felt so loved when many would like to give me a visit. I felt that great blessings over that curse. =]] Thank you to all who spent their time and care over me and your prayer that fought through this journey with me. (especially thanks to Buddy and Ivyna)
But above all, I would like to thank these group of people who stood by with me.
Grandma : Thank you for showing that never ending, never dying love on me. Even when you are old and limited, thank you for showing the love that never end. Thank you for lavishing your love, care and concern throughout the days of my life, especially when I was so weak.
Brother : Thank you for caring for me through your sms and your concern with your actions. I felt so blessed and you are my life, my sunshine, my smile and my shelther through anytime of my life. Thank you so much.
Dad : Thank you papa for driving me around to see the best doctor. Thank you for being there patiently waiting for me. Thank you for loving me the way you know how. Thank you for giving me nothing but the best for my life. Thank you for caring for me through the nights. Thank you papa.
Mum : I will never have enough thnak you for you. I will never be able to comprehend what you have had done for me through the past 8 days. I can't forget those nights you sat down and fell asleep. I can't forget those moments when your hands are cold with cold water and ice to make sure my head is not over-heated. I can't forget those medicine times when you have to cut the medicines for me. I can't forget those faces that you showed over me. I can't.
My family, you are my life. You are my strength and pillar of support when I needed most. I just don't have enough thank you to say to all of you. =]] I love all of you.
